I was in quite a murderous mood today. I was quite livid about what I thought was downright spiteful behaviour against me. I was so mad that I harboured thoughts of hiring a hitman to take out the offender. I then emailed my friend, giving vent to my anger and telling her about all the dastardly things I’d love to do to him, including and not limited to dropping a bomb on his house when he and his family was out. (At the point of thinking of dropping the bomb, I had decided I’d get more satisfaction if he was around to see the destruction).
After I calmed down, and was able to think in a more sane manner, it occurred to me that that was how some murders happened. Not just here in Jamaica but elsewhere too. Not everyone had the emotional maturity to allow the thoughts to remain as just thoughts.
I must admit that harbouring murderous thoughts about people who did me grievous wrongs is nothing new to me. I do recall plotting to kill a particularly mean cousin when I was a pre-teen. I’d spend quite a bit of time not only plotting his murder but thinking of how I could get away with it.
Of course there might be an argument against harbouring such thoughts in the first place. I’m trying to decide even as I write whether I actually derive any satisfaction from plotting these imaginary murders against people who have wronged me. It’s not exactly cathartic because I actually get even more worked up thinking about the horrors that I’d like to mete out on these offenders.
11 responses so far ↓
bakannal // February 2, 2008 at 11:14 pm
Ummm…
katcampbell // February 3, 2008 at 12:28 am
I think everyone has a murderous thought from time to time but since plotting the murder is stealing your joy…maybe you could turn that rage to plotting a really embarrassing prank. Or you could write a murder mystery and get filthy, stinking, rich. You made my day with your comments at my place today, thank you!
Morpheus // February 3, 2008 at 1:05 pm
“Not by wrath does one kill, but by laughter.”
Esteban Agosto Reid // February 3, 2008 at 2:59 pm
If thoughts could kill we would not have enough jails or prisons to house people in our society in particular and the world in general.The essential, critical , and primaryfactors are, that majority of us for whatever reason or reasons —-psychological,religious,cultural,sociological,anthropologically,economics,legally, inter alia —- do not and will not operationalize such thoughts in terms of actualization. Essentially,this eschewing of violence and murders , is what gives us as human beings a semblance of civility to tolerate and respect fellow human beings,by adhering and conforming to a social contract and the rule of law that/which governs us as a people and society,as oppossed to actually being catapulted by irrational thoughts when experiencing a sense of disequilibrium, such as wasting or eliminating another human being irrespective of how we were wronged by that specific individual in question.Spiritual self-actualization,respect for self, others and the general sanctity of human life being extremely precious and irreplaceable can and will eliminate the harbouring of such thoughts.Excellent post Gela !! Also, I respect your honesty and candid disposition and psychology. RESPECT !!
Cranky Putz // February 4, 2008 at 1:35 pm
When I went through a particularly depressive teenage part of life, I would walk around imagining everyone I didn’t like’s head automatically combusting…..lol
I still think there is a difference between thinking evil and actually doing it…
jdid // February 4, 2008 at 7:34 pm
join the club. i can think of a bunch of people who i have imagined if not murdering at least doing some serious bodily harm. but as long as you realize the difference between fact an fantasy I think its ok. just got to keep a level head.
Stunner // February 4, 2008 at 11:13 pm
I think as humans we naturally want to see someone who wronged us suffer. But harbouring the thought f harming the person or giving way to our emotions at such a time is indeed what drives a person to do the act. If more persons learned to control their rage, we would have less murders.
Adrian // February 7, 2008 at 11:37 am
“not limited to dropping a bomb on his house”? lol what wrong could this man have done you suh?
experienceaurie // February 10, 2008 at 8:17 pm
Ok then….*crickets chirping in the background*
scratchie // February 14, 2008 at 3:25 pm
how much yuh willing to pay for the hitman?…….
mad bull // March 9, 2008 at 10:17 am
Yah, I want to know what this man did to you too? Sounds very interesting!
I too have harbored thoughts on killing people who have wronged me. I am not letting on whether there are any graves or where they might be though…
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