I’m so damn tired of this lifestyle! It’s wearing me the hell out! Studying, studying, studying every goddamn day. I swear that all this reading and working freaking problems is turning my brain to mush.
Why the hell do I need another qualification any dam way? I already have two degrees including the much vaunted MBA with a finance major that I worked my ass off for. Shouldn’t that be enough for me to feel satisfied with my achievements plus allow me to earn enough to put a roof over my head, keep a decent ride plus stash some money away for retirement? You’d think!
Oh yes, I remember why. Because of the lofty educational goals that I set for myself. Oh, and because of the increasingly competitive environment we live in now where you almost need a certificate to wash someone’s car.
Back in the 70’s when I was a little girl, a person with a 1st degree would be CEO. If you have a masters, people bow when you pass by! Not any more.
I’d be so darn upset if after subjecting myself to this pleasure deprived existence I end up getting some crappy grade like 74%.
I must be a dam masochist too because as much as the sight of the manual makes me feel like having a screaming fit I know I won’t give up on it. So if I fail I’m going to do this all over again. I refuse to feel like I’m beaten by anything.
Damnit! I have a whole month of fun planned for December so I’d better not fail! If I have to do this again…….
Let me not contemplate that depressing possibility!
13 responses so far ↓
mad bull // November 5, 2006 at 11:36 am
Chin up! You can do this! Take small breaks, get out and do sup’m and then come back. What are you studying anyway, is this the Doctorate or what?
Mighty Afroditee // November 5, 2006 at 2:22 pm
I agree with MB. Take some time to pamper yourself in the girly manner - massage, pedi, facial or something, and then approach it again each time from a new perspective. The more tense yu are, the more frustrated and tired you will be.
There will be no charge for these sage words ; ).
Ta.
Cool Destiny // November 5, 2006 at 8:31 pm
You have to balance everything. It can’t be Gela studying all the time. Pace yourself, make lists organize and make the best of your study time. You’ll be less frustrated and more likely to get the good grade you want. More power to you. I ain’t doing no masters unless my company paying for it. They are too expensive and over-rated in my opinion. Good luck. It will be worth it … whatever it is.
katcampbell // November 5, 2006 at 10:58 pm
You’re not gonna fail! Study anxiety, get drunk, have a sick day and then back at it! You’re almost done!
Kingston Girl // November 6, 2006 at 8:48 am
Hey, if you’ve passed exams before, you can do it again! And think of how pleased you’ll feel afterwards.
I know what you mean though - am starting to feel that degree + MA not enough… need to do PhD - and that’s scary!
owen // November 6, 2006 at 12:40 pm
hahah 74%? I satisfied if I get 54%
eemanee // November 6, 2006 at 5:24 pm
good luck with the studies! of course you’ll do well!
it’s about time i did some more studying too but i’m stuck at figuring out just what.
Leon // November 6, 2006 at 7:03 pm
Proof that despite the fact that people say “nutten nah gwaan”, more students are entering college. So buck up. Don’t stop ’til your portfolio’s bursting with certificates.
abeni // November 7, 2006 at 5:29 am
I feel you.Back in school myself and wondering why.But,if I want to get where I want to be I got no choice
scratchie // November 7, 2006 at 1:39 pm
Welcome to the club, I’m your president scratchie. yuh kinda just have to do what you have to do.
Gela Words // November 9, 2006 at 8:40 pm
Oh believe me, I’d be satisfied with 74% too if the passmark wasn’t 75%.
SmartBlkWoman // November 11, 2006 at 1:22 pm
Have you ever thought of starting your own business instead of looking for a higher paying job? With your credendials I’m sure you’d be an excellent CEO of your own company.
We need more black people starting businesses.
Gela Words // November 11, 2006 at 2:59 pm
SBW, that thought is always at the forefront of my mind.
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