I feel discouraged. I haven’t studied in three days. I feel discouraged. So I’ve just been sleeping, waking up in the night to study but watching tv instead.
I’ve been averaging 60-odd% in the questions that I’ve been working. That’s no good because the passmark is 75%. If I don’t finish everything by April next year, I’ll lose the other two that I’ve already passed.
Exam is 2 months away and I don’t feel comfortable about any of the subjects.
Maybe I should do one in November instead of two, do the other one in January. But jeez, I wanted to enjoy my December. Who wants to be studying throughout the xmas season? Plus I want to enjoy the three days of Jazz Festival in January. Also, I wanted to avoid the additional plane fare to travel to the USA to do the exams. Oh sh_t!
I’m so scared of failing.
Very scared.
Sigh.
15 responses so far ↓
Kat Campbell // September 22, 2006 at 8:25 am
Time for a shake up Gela! One day completely off. No getting dressed or eating anything healthy. Wallow in the frustration for just one day and then shed that defeated thinking like an ugly coat and get back on it. Don’t be afraid to ask for help!
Kingston Girl // September 22, 2006 at 8:45 am
Apparently Cyndi Lauper is coming for jazz and blues!!! I’ve told the man to book the hotel from now!
Gela's Words // September 22, 2006 at 8:54 am
Oh Kat, you’re such a tweetheart. But I’ve wallowed for 3 whole days already, I’m afraid to wallow any more. I have to motivate myself to go at it again. It’s not difficult, just need to work enough questions until I’m dreaming the answers.
KG, I hear Tina Turner is going to be here! and the hotels are all booked out already! For real! My girlfriend made some calls yesterday and the hotels were booked solid for that weekend, I was shocked when she told me that yesterday. When, oh when are the jazz festival people going to bring down Jill Scott? She was at Barbados Jazz Festival earlier this year I think.
Yamfoot // September 22, 2006 at 1:28 pm
gela, the solution is to say you are just going to do 1/2 hour work….then you’d do much more than that and feel great about it.
Guyana-Gyal // September 22, 2006 at 1:35 pm
Okay, here’s what you do, I know it might sound real weird but it works:
wake up early tomorrow, Saturday. Go for a brisk walk. Make yourself a hearty breakfast. Drink lots of water throughout the day. Eat a good, healthy lunch. Eat apples. Drink low fat milk. Set aside time to study, time to relax.
JamaicanQueen // September 22, 2006 at 2:47 pm
The olny time you fail is when you don’t try at all. Studying doesn’t have to be a big drawn out process. Try reading your textbooks when you have extra time. Like if you sitting in the tub, read that chapter in the book. I know it will sound gross but read a few pages when you are finishing your personal business on the toilet if you go regularly. Sometimes you retain more in those few minutes than you would have if you tried to sit up for hours with the books.
Irie Latino // September 22, 2006 at 2:58 pm
It’s the fear of failing that’s screwing with you and making you avoid it. I agree with Jamaican Queen. Try to incorporate the subject matter into your daily life and relate it to things you think about (if it’s the kind of subject matter with which you can do that)…then it doesn’t seem like such a chore. At least, that’s what we gentlemen of leisure do
try to fuse work and play….
Kingston Girl // September 22, 2006 at 3:54 pm
Tina Turner??? WOW!!!!!!!!!!!
Leon // September 22, 2006 at 4:25 pm
Oh hell! Better pull up those socks girl! Remember your priorities!
Melody // September 22, 2006 at 4:59 pm
MayB U need a study-buddy, Gela — not necessarily someone who’s studyin’ what U’re studyin’, but someone who can relate, & whom U could help when de roles R reversed, someone with whom U could set up a system of rewards/reinforcement. (Relatives make nice study-buddies, ’cause they’re often so accessible.) Hang in there.
Dr. D. // September 23, 2006 at 9:58 am
Get back in the groove and just go fot it. Allow yourself time for R&R as well. Sitting down beating book is really not a thing that lures you in a positive way…like say the thought of going to the beach or sailing. Fear of failure is horrible!
Good luck Gela.
Shotta M // September 23, 2006 at 11:06 am
Do what it takes to regain focus, don’t give up, don’t be afraid to ask for help, do your best, and don’t be too hard on yourself after it all.
kai // September 23, 2006 at 11:25 am
dunno wat to tell u. could neva study meself. tank gawd de majority of me lecturers were females…lol. seriously now…u need to be realistic about your chances of acing both in november. im guessin anything else would be unacceptable for u. i think u should consider doin one in november. it would free u up psychologically which would lead to a positive attutude to studying. xmas comes every year. can always have a blast next year…or a post exam bashment to celebrate ur genius.
Gela's Words // September 24, 2006 at 1:08 pm
Oh, y’all are just the bestest blogpals ever. Just came back from a weekend country funeral to see all this support. I feel motivated already.
bassChocolate // October 4, 2006 at 3:44 pm
A bit more support… hang in there.
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